I Love You : Always and Forever

If you hadn't made me believe.
we wouldn't be here,
lost in the moment,
watching time pass us by.
If I hadn't trusted you,
I'd probably be falling apart.
My heart would be in pieces,
I'd be on my knees, begging God for a new start.
If I wouldn't have given you my heart,
it would probably be shattered on the floor
with pieces missing & no hope for it to ever be whole.
I sit here and look back
at all the relationships I've been in
and then look at ours, questioning myself
"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING...?"
Nothing in the world could ever compare
to the love that you've given me,
and I could NEVER repay you for all that you've done.
Your love means so much to me
and I want you to know
that I'll always love you,
that will NEVER change...
As long as you remember....
"Always && Forever..."

I can't miss you if I never knew you

I can't miss you if I never knew you
Although Nobody believes that your death didn't affect me its true
When you were born I was just 2 months off turning Seven
How can I be sad if before I saw you, You were already on your way to heaven

I remember how you looked, And how scared I was to hold you
I didn't go to sleep that night even though everybody told me to
I don't remember the next day, Or any days after
It doesn't get spoken of, It was a day that went by without laughter

There has been times I've imagined how you could of looked

Would your hair be brown or maybe black?
Would you be an athlete and spend your days on the track?
Would you be pretty and attract all the boys
Would you of been a cow and stole all my toys

So many things that could of been but never will
You left an empty spot in everyones hearts that no one will ever able to fill
But I can't explain how these things make me feel
Because feelings are something I never learnt to reveal.

You still love me

Can you sing for me one last time?
With lexis that will forever
be etched in my mind?

Remind me that I was wrong.
Tell me that you evoked me.
Whisper to me your qualms.
Bawl your feelings out
and aid me into thinking
it was all a vast blunder.

Hold my hand like you're not secluded.
Touch me like you've never touched me before.

Smile to me like it's your first time.
Cry to me like you heed for me.

Please, make me believe that you were real.
That you were there... authentic and existent.
That I was once entirely happy.

Please, see me like you still love me.